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9.30.2008

Finding God


I took advantage of the beautiful weather yesterday to sit outside during my lunch break and read a book. As I was reading, I would look up every few minutes at the trees; just study them, the structure of their leaves and branches, how every leaf was stretching itself toward the sun, as if it were some popular musician and they were all crazed teenage girls trying to shake his hand.
I got to thinking about how beautiful nature is and how much I enjoy being in it, how when I'm in a forest or surrounded by trees I can almost feel God's presence. I found myself saying "Geez, I really need to make time to go on a walk in the forest so I can feel God again."
At that moment, it was almost as if I heard God telling me, "I'm right here."
"Yeah, I know God, you're everywhere."
"No, Kyle...I'm right here."
"So, you don't want me to go to the forest?"
"You're missing the point, Kyle. I want you to know that you don't have to go to the forest, to church, to a prayer group to find me...I'm right here."
I feel like I make my time with God a big ordeal, something I have to plan out, to venture to, to coordinate. Yeah, I know I can pray to God whenever I want, and that He's with me during my day, but the defining moments in our relationship are when I'm at church, or having a "God conversation", or praying with someone. Why is that? Why do I have to make such an agenda for my relationship with God, to put Him in that box? If my relationship with my wife consisted solely of the "milestones" of our marriage (ie. our wedding, vacations, anniversary dates, etc.), that would be like 10 times that I connected with her. No, it's in the day-to-day of life that a true relationship is built. Why can't it be that way with God? Truth be told, I think it's because I'm too busy, or proud, or distracted to bring God into my minutae, that I've let our relationship consist of a few special times at church, or camp, or Bible study meetings. I want God to be with me every minute of every day. I want every decision I make to involve God, and to have a true friendship with Him.

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